21 things ;

Well i really should be getting stuck into the five hours of homework i have to do, considering its already nearly five thirty, and i dont particularly want to go to bed at ten, however i found these on myspace, from ages ago and its a really good way to get things off your chest so though id just post it :)







Rules:
1. List 21 things you want to say to different people, but probably never will.
2. Dont say who they are.
3. Never discuss it.


1.i havent talked to you in over a year, but everynow and then i miss you. i hated you for so long for what you did to me, it was her fault of what happened and i hated you for making me think you loved me too. i dont think you realised how long it took for me to move on. but ill still cherish those times <3

2. I really despise you at times, you have such double standards and i hate the way you treat me.

3. I fell for you pretty hard, and we used to be sooo close. i miss that, but now your just a dickhead, and if i really think about it, you kinda always were.

4. Your a fucking prick and i despise you more than anyything. I came running back back time and time again and all you ever did was use me and treat me like a piece of shit and lie to me. Fuck you

5. I friggen miss you so much. nothing was the same without you for so long and i dont think you knew how much i depended on you. , weve both changed so much, but ill never forget the friendship we had :) and all the good times.

6. I really dont tell you enough how much you mean to me. Over all the years i think owe you my sanity many a time. youve always been there time and time again. I know weve had our moments and sometimes i do stupid things, and we do stupid things together, But i really love you, and hope i never loose you.

7. Im really sorry about what happened. It wasnt just your fault i was a bitch about the whole thing. Still it we had a good time.

8. Im not sure you realise how big a part of me you are, your what gets me through the days, even tho sometimes it seems like your the reason there so long. Still i love you with my whole heart. and i want you to know how much you mean to me.

9. im confused when it comes to you, i keep thinking bout the whole everything and at the moment im not sure what to make of you us or anything.

10. that night is etched into my brain. I dont know what it was for you, but to me it meant a bit.

11.i dont think you handled things very well. Your too caught up in yourself, and i think you need to take a step back and get a grip on everything. Stop blowing things out of proportion.

12. You make me happy, i love you.

13. your my bestfriend. you know me inside out and everything about me, it took alot of time i didnt know how to let you in. But thank you for waiting.

14. I think your maturity levels are lacking. you think you know alot, but in actual fact you really dont. Your naive and still need to grow up . You havent had the experience and the ones you have you ideals of them are totally wrong. and your too stubborn to think otherwise, this really gets on my nerves, stop treating me like the young one. if youll listen i can teach you alot. You still need to grow up considerably.

15. sometimes when i think of you i think of the movie not another teen movie, You think your above the drama but truth is, your just a big part of. and are to caught up in yourself to realise.

16. for gods sake your a hell of lot older than what your acting!, act how you should and cut the bullshit.

17. your beautiful, i just wish you knew that and werent so insecure. I dont think people realise how much everything has an affect on you, and im sory for that.

18. You dont deserve him

19. Please dont hurt me,

20. sometimes i love you sometimes i despise you, im sorry for how i treat you at times, it jsut depends how im feeling on the day, you dont deserve it but thats just how i deal with it.

21. i miss you. the old you. the one i could tell anything about and would always tell me what to do. the one who yelled at people at the pub for messing with me. the one who i could crawl into bed with and watch movies all night. the one who was such a big part of me. i looked up to you, but now your gone, in a sense anyway. i couldnt deal with it if you were gone forever, and no matter what i say or how i treat you, i love you so much, it just hurts and id rather mask that pain than have